Last night, I was lying in bed praying in tongues, and telling God that I really don’t understand healing. Now I’ve been to many healing courses and conferences, and have seen, and continue to see people getting healed and set free – it’s amazing and wonderful! But I was feeling that we really need to get into a “flow” of healing, just like we get into flows of tongues or the prophetic. All of a sudden I got a download of understanding about tongues that I hadn’t seen before.
Now I have spoken in tongues for over 20 years, but at the beginning, it seemed like an almost impossible task. Once I did start speaking in tongues, all questions just disappeared, so it’s been a while since I thought about why some of us find it hard to get started. What the Lord showed me was this:
- It’s one of the first experiences we have where the mind is not in control – we don’t understand what’s happening
- Our minds are used to “governing” what comes out of our mouth. It’s like a feedback loop – the mind puts a “check” on what we say. If we don’t think it will come out right, we don’t say it. When some children are learning to speak, you can see that they don’t want to try to speak (or let anyone else hear) until they know that they will say what they want to say. With other kids, there is no governor at all – what they think pours out of their mouth and they don’t care if it’s right or wrong.
In the same way, when first trying to speak in tongues, many of us are governed by that same feedback loop – the problem is that because we don’t have a frame of reference for tongues, our minds can’t know if what we would say would be tongues or not, so we are stopped before we start. With natural language, once we start testing it out, we quickly learn to just go with it. With speaking in tongues, because there is no reference point for what it should sound like, we can’t move on. We get paralyzed and may say, “Oh well, maybe God doesn’t want me to have this gift.” The voice of the enemy in our heads only reinforces this point of view.
This kind of thinking is a logic trap with no way out. I remember going to meetings where someone would pray for me and tell me to just open my mouth and say something. For the longest time, this didn’t work for me. Several months later, I was at home and I opened my mouth and made a sound. I realized it was a bit different and in hindsight, I see that the sound I made just “popped out” rather than being made up. Even so, for a while, I had doubts if this was real or if I was just making it up.
The thing I didn’t know (and wasn’t explained to me in ways I understood) was that the impetus for opening my mouth and speaking does not come from my mind, but comes from my spirit. Not surprising, since there was very little understanding about our spirits.
The prophetic works in the just the same way. I now know that I can receive words or pictures from the Lord, and over time they have become more focused and accurate. I learned to recognize when something was “dropped” into my spirit, and I’ve learned to trust His voice. The key to this is knowing that the thought does not originate in my mind. It comes from the Spirit through my spirit, because I am in Him and He is in me.
How does this apply to healing?
So after this revelation (which probably lasted only a second or two), I asked God what this has to do with moving in a flow of healing. I believe He was showing me that:
- We’ll never get there by trying to understand it with our minds. 1 Cor 2:14 – the natural man can’t understand the things of the Spirit – they are spiritually discerned
- The only way to be able to move in a flow of healing, is to realize that we need to constantly walk and live out of our spirit. The key to everything is walking by the Spirit in all situations.
Jesus said we should go and heal people (see Mat 10:5-8). He didn’t say to pray for people to be healed (although we can do this too). Again, 1 Cor 2:14 says that everything about God is spiritually discerned. Jesus moved in an unprecedented and constant flow of the Spirit – He was always aware of what was going on. How did Jesus know when “the power of the Lord was present to heal?” It was because he constantly lived out of his spirit. I think we will find that success in healing has more to do with living out of our spirits that anything else. Having understanding is good, but relying on it won’t get us anywhere
I believe God showed me this because we are moving into a time of an unprecedented outpouring of healing and creative miracles. Like Justin Abraham says, “small keys open big doors”